Gay Blog

So Brian's thing about being gay made me want to write this up. I was starting a blog anyways, and this is almost always on my mind.
My family doesn't know I'm bisexual. My grandmother has flat out said that she believes that if a person is bisexual, they're in the process of coming out as full on gay. Well, I know that's wrong.
And I'm just as attracted to women as I am to men, but I'm more likely to be in a boy-girl relationship than a girl-girl relationship. Why? Because all the girls I want to fuck are straight. I mean, honestly, I daydream about kissing my friend Pagiel all the time. I wonder exactly what it would feel like to have her soft, round lips against mine almost everytime I see her.

When I was in the eighth grade, I spent the night at my best friend, Rushell's house. I'd realized at this point that I was desperately in love and lust with her, but I hadn't told anyone else. She fell asleep before I did (which was a rarity) and I was sitting there watching her sleep. She called my name out, and I thought she might be awake, but she was just sleep talking. I didn't quite know when she said it though, so I answered "Yeah, baby?" and she said "I love you. Come lay by me." This is when I realized she was sleep talking again, but I did it anyways. And while I was lying there, this fantasy of what would happen if she was awake and I kissed her ran through my head. I leaned down and kissed her neck. She sleep smiled and curled tighter into my arms. At some point, I fell asleep, when I woke up the next morning, she was looking at me and I had her watermellon lipsmackers lipgloss on my lips. And it wasn't because I was wearing it.
I was asleep for my first ever real kiss with a girl.