I'm afraid that when I'm 20 I'm going to have affairs with older men. I don't know why. I just am.

I'm so not over my ex. I miss him and I when we were good. When we were good, we were SO good. And as far as sexual things went, we were so on the same page. Same with emotional stuff. I could be like "This happened today," and if we were good at the time, he'd know exactly what to say.
On Facebook he's married to some chick. I'm doubting their actually together, but still. I kind of... Idk.

I feel bad now.