Aw man, do you have any idea how nice it is to be able to hang out with a male friend you can flirt with, hug, link arms, skip, and just be generally weird with?
So amazing.
James and I had an EPIC time at Festival, needless to say. We made a picture together. :D I think I'm gonna have to photocopy it and make a copy for him, cuz it was way too awesome.
But I did have a moment of weakness, from far away this kid looked like Austin, and he was singing. I just kinda wanted to run up to him kiss him and hug him and be like "I missed you so much!" But when I got up closer, that feeling was gone. He didn't look like Austin up close.
Aw, man. James said the BEST thing. I mean, made my YEAR! He was like "So where did Sam go?" and I'm like "Oh he went to Ryan's to play video games and be all masculine." "So... Wait... He went to video games... Over THIS?!" he said, pointing at me. And he just generally complimented me and was a sweetheart all around. And it was great, because I didn't even slightly worry that he might have actual feelings for me, or I for him. We were just hanging out together. I LOVE being able to juts hang out and hang on and flirt with my male friends without it getting weird. I used to do that with Nuri, but then he started dating Allison and I was going out with Sam and we lost something there. Not necessarily in a bad way. But I lost that.
I want that again. Like a guy best friend I can just hang all over and my boyfriend's okay with it and knows that it's just me being me not me trying to come on to him. A guy I can tell anything to and vice versa without me dating him so that I can bitch to him about who I AM dating and have him give the male perspective. Like a very masculine gay guy. That's what I need.
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